Yes. I think I am. It is for the reason that I was hurt by someone I truly love and I fear of losing myself once more. I fear failure, especially in relationships. I think the thing I am most fearful at is losing the persons I truly love.
But it doesn’t mean that I will not give in to love again. Sometimes, courage is in its most authentic sense when there is fear; admit fear, accept cowardice, yet choose to face it, choose to take a step forward, choose to love again knowing that God desires me to win in love and not in the fear of losing.